T-2 days until conferences. I'm definitely feeling more nervous than I ever have for conferences. This time it is all me; no longer a team effort. As I was taking a bath tonight, I was thinking about my crazy obsession with trying to be the perfect teacher. I know I'm not, but I also know I'm working on it. It amazes me that teachers can somehow not take comments to heart. It is almost as if they view teaching in a business-like matter. I wonder if I can do that. Right now I take everything personally because so much of myself goes into my work. Maybe if I could view it as, "they don't prefer my method," rather than "they don't like me," then maybe I could take it better. This has got to be my most insecure area.
I wonder if most people have places where they do their best thinking. I come up with my best ideas on walks with Kendra and while taking a bath. I think they are both places where I'm not really distracted by anything, so I can just think.